‘The Things They Didn’t See’ are about suffering with a chronic health condition and the struggles we go through with our mental health. A lot of people with (a) chronic illness(es) put on this brave face, we try to smile, laugh and engage as much as we can, pretending that we are happy, healthy and well. These photographs are my way of portraying and expressing what goes on in my head, how I normally feel on a day-to-day basis, and how alone, dark and cold things really can get.
A small collection of photographs of the Hers & His book.
The book itself is about 240 pages and documents the whole relationship throughout our first year together (from about 2 weeks in to our 1 year anniversary)
[Contains Nudity & Sexual Themes.]
The Book "Hers & His" is an archive of photographs that details the first year of two young adults' relationship. Inspired by a conversation on the topic of memorabilia, the couple quickly set out to document aspects if their relationship as the first year gradually rolled onwards.
Due to an illness, known as Fibromyalgia, Elizabeth suffers from memory impairment. This renders her ability to memorize events and people to a poor state. Though this project, Elizabeth attempts to preserve the new found love through photography for future days.
The project, as a whole, explores the various aspects of a new relationship and all the fascinating discoveries two people will uncover over time. Aspects such as; intimacy, adventure, self-discovery, the growth of love and ultimately trust.
Despite having personal connotations, this project has had, and continues to have, a considerable fan base online. The majority of the published photos from this archive were designed to portray the subjects as anonymous in the hope that their viewers not only enjoy the photography but see an aspect of themselves within the images. In the book, those images are marked with the amount of Tumblr notes they've received (at the time of publishing the book); integrating the personal and public aspects of the artists lives.
When I first became ill, I didn’t think much of it… originally I believed it to be a stomach bug, nothing serious, nothing that would make a huge impact on my life style. I don’t think I’ll ever forget that weekend, it felt as though someone was ripping my insides out of me. I was in constant pain, I could barely stand, words failed to fall from my mouth. I walked around like a zombie.
Two weeks later and nothing had changed, I decided it was about time I went to the doctor. A week later and I was back again, three weeks later, four weeks later… I was still in pain, everything I did hurt, every muscle in my body ached and nothing was being done.
Four months later I eventually got sent for an abdominal and pelvic Ultrasound, it came back clean and back to the doctor I went. Having ruled out that it was to do with my womb, liver, gallbladder, kidneys, lungs, pancreas etc. my doctor was baffled and I got refereed to a specialist to get a colonoscopy and a gastrocopy, which happened at the end of May. I remember that day… my sedation did not work, I felt everything… I cried through the whole thing. They found a polyp which they removed, my stomach was raw red and I had a duodenal ulcer, I then got scheduled for a small bowel M.R.I. which took place a month later.
On the 24th June I was diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease. I was put on Pentasa sachets which are special Crohn’s medication. In August I was back for a consultation and nothing had changed. So I got put on strong steroids, potassium, calcium and anti acid tablets. My medication had gone from 2 a day to 18 a day and would drop by one steroid a week. A month later, still no change. I went back and got told that if I wasn’t any different by the end of my steroids I was to be put in hospital for further investigations. At the start of October I went back and the choice was made for me to go in for the investigations.
On the 15th October I was admitted into hospital.